my mother!

I'm a little sad today. I received an email from my mother. Asking why I dont' call or visit her. And it was telling me how sorry and sad she is. She left my father almost 2 years ago to live with an internet man. No notice, no warning just left. I was 6 months pregnect at the time. The man she is with now is bi-polar and does drugs, drinks and I think(I have no proof) he hits her. And she is still very unhappy. I guess I just don't understand why she would leave dad (dad would have moved moon for her) for this "crazy" man. I'm not saying that dad is perfect but he has to be better than "crazy" man. But thats not why I am angry with her. I am mad because I haven't heard from her since Thanksgiving, and she writes me an email making it to be all my falut. Well the last time I tried to call her the phone number I have didn't work. So how in the world can I call her if I dont' have the number..and I have no clue where she lives. She lives in the big city 1 hour away. And she left us! We didn't leave her. So if anyone should be calling anyone I think it's her. I am so mad at her. I have a lot of resentment for her anyway. She let me get married when I was 15 to a man that was abusive and a little crazy. Not that she knew at the time he was abusive but who would let a 15 year old get married! (( I'm 28 now)) I'm going to sign off now before I write something I'll regret later. Thanks for reading my vent.

4 comments:

Chiloe said...

You got married at 15 yo ! :-o That's way too young: you're right ;) Both of your parents should not have let you get married ... Maybe your mom were very unhappy inside (doesn't mean she is not unhappy anymore ... people are sometimes weird ... )

~Tammy said...

The problem with family hon, is you don't pick them and you have no choice in the matter. Your choices are, tell your mother exactly how you feel. Do it in such a way that it is about how you feel and try not to put her down. If she's already in a bad place in her current relationship it is not going to be well recieved, if you attack her actions. Trust me, I know exactly how you feel. It is not a nice feeling no matter your age or situation.

I believe you have my home e-mail if you want to unload privately.

Big hugs!

Kim said...

I don't have any advice but wanted to send big hugs and good thoughts your way :)

Stitchingranny said...

oh poor you (hugs). Having never experienced anything like that I cannot give any advice but do hope you work things out and try not to feel bitter.